I don't seem to be very motivated. I don't mean just today, but a lot of the time.
When I am motivated to do something or go somewhere, it seems to come in spurts. And I have to get going while the motivation is with me. So therefore, everyone around me has to be motivated all of the time - so they will be ready to go when the mood strikes me.
Doug and the grand kids have been gone since Thursday to Red River. It has been a perfect opportunity for me to clean the house... o.k. that is rather vague. I mean I needed to wash my clothes, wash the bedding for all 3 rooms upstairs, wash towels, wash the dishes - and all of the duties that go along with those chores.
I had only 4 loads of my laundry to do. I have gotten 3 of those done, but none are folded and put away. They are either on the couch, hanging in the hall doorways or in the dryer - and there is still the 4th load in my bathroom floor.
I haven't washed any of the bedding or towels from upstairs.
I did get the dishes washed, but they are still in the dishwasher. The rest of the kitchen isn't necessarily dirty, but just cluttered.
I have all of these plans to do things when I get home from work, but I walk in the door and lose my motivation completely. Once I sit down, it is all over. I think I will sit for just 30 minutes and check my email or watch one show on TV. Next thing I know it is about 6pm.
Every once in a while, I manage to keep my motivation. Usually because Doug is ready to go somewhere when I come in and I don't get a chance to sit down.
I'm sure that it isn't all a motivation problem. A big part of it is I am just lazy. There, I said it. I admit that I am a lazy person. I wish that I wasn't, but I don't know how exactly to change. Sometimes I can avoid being lazy for a while - but then I slide right back into it.
When I am at work, I don't have a choice to be lazy; there is no time. I have to go, go, go. I am usually pretty energetic. Sometimes I dance a little or sing while I am getting things ready or in between cases. But by the time I get home, I have used it all up.
I don't know where I am going with all of this. I know what I need to do. Most of the time I am either too tired to do it or just plain don't want to right now.
So if you see me out doing something that looks as though I am accomplishing alot or like I am on a mission, don't stop me to talk. I may never finish whatever it is that I am doing.
Well, I better go. I need to fold those clothes and put up the dishes. Then I have to wash the sheets and towels,...